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Firewall
There are things you don’t say
Things you have to hide away
You feel like a prisoner in your own head
All you wish for is a quick death
You can’t escape without leaking some memories
And those are the ones you try to hide
Through your eyes you see all around
Behind them are things dark and evil
There are you trying to find some light
And you will be behind there until the end
Behind bars in your own brain
You pray for a life with happiness
The firewall is not a gift
It is blocking me
It is breaking me down
But I do need my firewall
To make sure no one sees my memories
Sometimes I wish I could talk
Say what’s on my mind
Let everyone know what I been through
Scream all the dirty secrets
Let myself out in the world
Feel the sun softly touch my skin
What if I could be free?
Free to tell free to sing free to shout
But when I build my firewall
I gave me no way to escape my head
It still holds me tight
Like a prisoner in my own head
I Long for freedom
Anne Ottosson 2014